one day at a time...

43curiouschild

..have i being loved..maybe i have being loved..was i loved for who iam..am loving myself..is that enough..still in need of love..

..she was talking about dying with out anger with out fear...

..listing 2 latin music..am going there real soon..

..she siad; you mad a mistake of coming back,what are you going to do here! where are you going to live...

..then she said; oh come and we could talk it through and see what you can do in your life...

..well thanks, if i look lost to you, i know exactly where i dont to go..or to end up in a place not for me..am not that lost you see..

..whats new about death..people died will die..what comes after birth is the certainty of death..live gracefully die quietly...


..sand storm..is the arabian spring..
..people might stop using the arabian spring, when they live in the spring time in an arabian country..or african for that matter..
..the arab spring was and is ..another TV show after the success of arab idiot..

..internet connection is still slow due to the overload of users escaping from reality..


..started off to be liked\loved by all..then it took turn into performance..then i got bord of pleasing people to get their approval..
..at this time and age"ageing is the key factor here"..dont have the need or time for any performance..am not seeking an oscar or applause..
..but really it was funny watching the re-runs of those attempts..my mantel reruns of a past performer..

The God of Small Things..remembrance of this novel,the time of my life when reading it,how it mad me reflect on my own family history..
The God of Small Things..it was late winter of 1999,am in my mothers house not leaving my room..plaining my great away :)

..the thing about curiosity..or me..is the need to understand to fill the emptiness of the unknown..

..its reading about a subject that dont care about just to understand what is the fuss about..

..to go searching for things and their meaning in deferent point of view, pros& against..to keep thinking about whtas  hidden  behind..

..curiosity that killed the cat, is nothing to what i do to myself when i do not know or understand..


..u know black souks light..but there is no such thing  the colour black in nature..its a man made colour..




...organized religion..organize crime...

...media...instant gratification...

..this, tomorrow would be batter, is not coming is it..


..had to leave to see if I could come back...

..when in duet to stay or go..I always go..

..then if I want come to where I was..it will not what I would want...


..packed my dream and dreamed on...

..all I wanted is to dance..this music you put on is for something els...

..guans of newyork: "there will be blood".."in the name of the father"....

..damn in peace...quietly..




don't let people pull u in2 their storm,pull them in2 ur peace..no..pulling from either side..not interested in pulling

..my hand is splashed with remains of paint..not that am painting..am collecting my colors..