maha masoud time line journal 2006-2012

came to cairo sept 2005

by june2006 had my first artshow

feb2007 artshow

the year2008

elhuriya caffe

the year2009 artshow

mean while i was fooling around trying new ways

getting a new place...

was preparing for an artshow in feb2011..then 

late 2010

after i came to my apartment..back to reality 2011

when i still believed, the year 2012 

maha masoud time line journal 2006-2012
digital panting

I am more and more my best self

people in my life are really mirrors of me

 I get better every day


am up for the adventure of a lifetime. Fear has no hold over me

nothing I have is truly mine

@42curiouschild
my eyes hurt when i open them..they hurt when they r closed..so let them hurt 4 i can't take them out :)
feel the fear and do it anyway..feel the pain till it gos away

u think we feel the same way or think the same way or react in the same way just because it happened to us :) no its not the same

damn when i believed in you and did not believed in myself

the history of what i once believed in, the history of what i came to believe in

we co-exist on the same plant..i dont have to be with them..live and let go..some people are still in my life just to remind me how right i was not to be like them..

to stop the voices in my head i need to listen to voices outside of it..need to listen not to think
silence shouts so loud


coming bake to the place i was born and raised to be with my brother,to be with myself..now i have to listen to what the place is telling me
moving around to escape the very thing that iam looking for..running away from myself to be myself..wow was that really needed

is letting go about holding to oneself..is letting go re-discovering oneself

my eyes had to hurt me for me to understand that i over used it..now i have to use other sense :)
my eyes had to hurt for me to see with the eye of my heart..even my heart is blinded with pain..

this pain is here to tell me what i could not see or hear or feel..this pain is my healer..if healing what i need
years ive lived with pain.laughing at it a lot ,running from it all the time..and its still here so i face my pain

its not freedom i was seeking, i feel free 
its pain free i was seeking, pain kept me tide to my fears to the voices in my head, running away from pain as if wanting a dream

pain is still here as old as me, the only friend i had like my own shadow, now my old friend its time to set you free..

yes for sure i have to set my pain free i have to let go of whatever reason ..let go of it all




i love, i dont fall in love..
i care, i don't take care ..

i know the difference between my own needs and my ability ..
so let it be..or let go

can't tell u of healing, but if theres not the wish to heal..might become what am trying to be healed from :)